Currently Watching Assault on Precinct 13 (Widescreen Edition) By Laurence Fishburne, Ethan Hawke see related

Yo, I just got a revelation today, and It was about how people look at me as a person. Tonight my friend thru a party right, and as i was leaving she said she read this site and that it changed how she looks at me. It made her think that I had feelings and that I was a nice guy. I wasnt mad at the fact that she thought of me any different, but I was more so wondering what imagine do I put out to people sometimes. Like I know how I am with people for the most part, but honestly, what imagine do people see when they see me. It a question that often wonders me but i never gave it any thought until tonight.

I mean like do people look at how I am sometimes drunk and obnoxious and think one way, or when they see me by myself in my room alone being sudo-anti-social. Or when they read these words, and these thoughts do they think, hey this guy is actually not that bad after all. I wonder. I pray to God that people dont think i put up a wall or something, but i wanna know what people think of me as a human, not saying im gonna change anything, but i make me think about things i do you know, subconscience things, that only they see that i dont.

I dont know, maybe im just looking too deep into this, but it was something i felt that i wanted to share with all you people out there, and just ask you, to ask yourself, "How do people view me?" Then maybe you can see what I'm talking bout. Anyway, I'm Out, Neighborhood Negro signing off....HOLLA!!!!!

Currently Playing The New Danger By Mos Def see related

- The Panties

Man, its been a full year and some change since I have written in my Xanga site. This used to be my sanctuary, and like any other place of holiness in my life, I had abandoned it. Now I would like to revive my faith in this place that I want to call home for me. Just a lil' update in my life right now, currently I'm in the process of finally graduating next year (hopefully). Even though most of you younger folks got out before me, its cool, just know, good things take time to create. And that is what I have been doing, creating something good for this world to enjoy one of these days. "06" I'm bout to make it happen bitch!! Well other than that, I'm still doing the same ole' shit. Being alone and not really talking to folks, thats just me on the real. I can't help it one bit, but oh well, we all die alone right? RIGHT?!?!?!?! Oh well, I just wanted to light this up really quick for old times sake, also, pretty soon I'm about to have a book of poetry that I'm looking to publish, so if you see anything with my name on it in your local Borders, Barnes and Nobles, etc. then you know that the time I took was worth it yall. And also I'm bout to try to appear on Def Jam Poetry, if my words are liked. I got big plans yall, ITS NOT A GAME!!!! Anyway, God bless yall.....1!!!!!!!!!! 

Damn peoples it's been three weeks almost since I wrote in this bad boy so I felt that it was about that time to come back with some of that new hotness that I been saving for yall, so here goes nothing.....

Well first we shall start let say around Easter Time. It was all good, I got to see my family and that was something I really, really, really needed for real. So come time for me to go back to East Lansing and I was like man I need a rebirth of my own. So my Uncle was cutting hair and I was like Unc, give me a cut. So I decide not just ne cut, I wanted to go all bald. So after it was all said and done, my head was looking like a cue ball....LOL

So after that I came back up to East Lansing and the week went as planned, No class attendance, Alot of Taco Bell, and Plenty of sleep...LOL. So friday comes around, and I had to go home to see my folks again, but before I did that I had to go and see Kill Bill Vol. 2. That shit was off the hook for real. A lil laid back from the first one, but all in all it was good ass hell. After that I went home and had to help my mother. So to my surprise I had a ticket to the Kanye West concert waiting for me. Boy oh boy, that shit was off the hook. First to perform was the Dilated Peoples and they were off the hook for real. It was wild, then the Young Gunz went on and they kinda sucked dick. Then the main event Kanye West came out and boy oh boy was that nigga hot. That was the best concert I have ever been to period.

So the next weekend goes by and up comes my poetry competition. But the night before that I went to see the Punisher and man let me tell you, that shit was off the hook. It was way, way better than the fucking first version of the movie I swear. So that night I been waiting for finally came and boy oh boy did I do well. Not just well, I won that bitch like what. It made it even better knowing that my family was there to support me, it was really cool for real. But supposedly it was a close win, but according to the crowd it was a landslide to me. Like the first round I must say was really close, like people came out gunning and it was hot. The only thing I can say about it really is that the people who I was competiting against we so similar that you could have put ne one up there you know. Like there topic choices and styles were so similar it was crazy. But me I kinda touched on so many topics it was crazy. The two best compliments that I got was one lady said that I was a blessed, gifted person. That made me feel good, and this one dude said he thought my delivery was so good that I could have been talking about cafe food and it would have still sounded good, so that made me happy to in a strange way...LOL. But now I'm 200 bones richer, can you say "Stealth"!!!! Be my lil treat to myself you know for winning something so cool. But I might will wait till I pay my bills first, for real. Ne way, that has been my month in a nut shell really so I'm happy. I even got offered to be in a show by one of the judges cause she liked my performance so much, after that I got tanked, like I so deserved. Well thats all from me people, so I will see you in a few days hopefully. So heres your neighborhood negro signing off....PEACE!!!!